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		wTuesday, December 31, 2002
		darth sheep: aloha Poshygrl24: hey darth sheep: WAT R UP Poshygrl24: watchin tv Poshygrl24: u? darth sheep: same Poshygrl24: wt watchin darth sheep: conan Poshygrl24: why!? lol darth sheep: cuz conan rocks darth sheep: ! Poshygrl24: n0 darth sheep: no?! Poshygrl24: no. darth sheep: fool darth sheep: my pizza will be done at 1:03 Poshygrl24: cool. Poshygrl24: u ordering it? or is it defrosted pizza lol darth sheep: defrosted Poshygrl24: what kind darth sheep: stoufers french bread veggie Poshygrl24: lol darth sheep: its good! Poshygrl24: i bet Poshygrl24: it sounds yummy darth sheep: yummers Poshygrl24: yummier than conan! darth sheep: conan is super yummy Poshygrl24: no. darth sheep: have you even tasted him! Poshygrl24: no but i bet u have darth sheep: i have Poshygrl24: ew did he taste like chicken darth sheep: he tastes like an irishman Poshygrl24: gross darth sheep: you dont know what you are missing Poshygrl24: its ok...ill stick with oatmeal and pizza darth sheep: that all you eat? Poshygrl24: sometimes darth sheep: sometimes Poshygrl24: si senor darth sheep: oatmeal on top of pizza? Poshygrl24: no Poshygrl24: oatmeal on top of applesauce darth sheep: hmmmmm darth sheep: with sugar? Poshygrl24: yummy Poshygrl24: no its cinnamon sugar oatmeal darth sheep: ah darth sheep: do you add more cinnamon and sugar to it? Poshygrl24: no darth sheep: why?! Poshygrl24: well if im paying for the convenience of buying pre cinnamonsugared oatmeal why would i go ou tof my way to do it myself? darth sheep: you cant just have average oatmeal darth sheep: you have to have SUPER OATMEAL Poshygrl24: thats why i buy flavored oatmeal darth sheep: yeah but everyone else that buys that same kind is getting the same flavor, and you dont feel you deserve extra flavor?! Poshygrl24: i put it on applesauce and eat it with bananas and graham crackers darth sheep: interesting Poshygrl24: yes. posted by Some Ceen at 1:08 PM

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		ok. i just got ur message...and no i didnt hear the phone ring it was on silent cuz i was talking to my dad....but anyway,here's what i think: 1-the situation with bill is somethin you'll never understand. he and i have always had this 'thing' i dont know how to describe it,but its just there and we both know it. i wouldnt say we like each other,its just hard to explain. but we've been really tight since 4th grade and just because i dont see him a lot or just because he's changed a lot doesnt mean im just going to drop him as a friend. im not as shallow as people think,if he does drugs and gets involved in shit like that,thats his deal. im not going to judge him by it. because he's my friend and thats all there is to it. the kiss thing was just something that happened...im not messing with him,or looking for him as a boyfriend or potential hookup--its not like that. i cant explain it. its just there. i dont care if you approve or not,he's my friend and im not gonna forget about him just because you and other people dont like him. 2-the thing with matt is complicated. what you need to know is when i fall for someone,i dont get over them easily. it takes a lot of time,a lot of talking,and a lot of heartache sometimes but its just a pattern i go through. when you said you and i are completely opposite,its not just about clothes or taste in guys/girls...its like,you start liking someone and start persuing them most of the time cuz they either like you first and you just see it as 'well if they like me i should like them back maybe we'll go out or get closer as friends' or maybe like 'i like this person but its pointless so ill just stop'. maybe im just imagining it,i dont know. but u gotta understand that i fell for him,no im not in love with him,but i have feelings for him,i cant describe it,but its there. and i dont appreciate when you and harry and everyone else make rude comments about him and bill, and everyone else because it hurts me to think that you try to pass it off as caring for me but if u cared,you'd want me to be happy. and today,hanging out with him was what could make me happy. and it also really pisses me off that you and harry took the liberty of telling my mom that bill and matt are 'bad people' and i shouldnt be allowed to hang out with them. because of course she's gonna believe what you guys are saying cuz you dont like him and neither does she. but did she ever get to know either of them? no. cuz her first impression of matt was what you guys were constantly saying. she got to know you harry sean and mike and knows that you guys are good people and all that stuff,but she never got to knew matt and i feel like she doesnt even wanna bother cuz you guys constantly remind her of how much you hate him and how much i should too....im just sick of it....... 3-the one other thing that really REALLY bothers me is how everyone is constantly trying to make decisions for me and dictate how i should live. im sick of the curfews,sick of being told how to act,when to eat,when to wake up,what to do,who to hang out with...the list goes on and on. for once in my life i need to be free--free from all the rules,free from everyone else's opinions. i need to start making my own decisions...so thats what im going to do. sure i might slowly be veering into a rebellious stage..but i didnt get there on my own. day by day,my parents,my sisters,even my friends are slowly pushing me to the border and i've had enough of it. im determined to change,and if it takes a little getting in trouble,and pissing a few people off...then so be it. 4-when i blew up at everyone today,yeah i know you guys automatically assumed i was either completely insane or pmsing....and it was neither. its was all these bottled up emotions that i had to get out of my system...its something that just happens to me,its a vicious cycle i cant escape. when i start hangin around people all the time,the little things start aggravating me and all of a sudden im frustrated,angry,and screaming at the top of my lungs. even to my mom. i never fight with my mom. but these past few weeks everythings been so damn tense and i refuse to keep on living like everythings peachy..because it definately is not. i just have to let people know how i feel before it causes permanent damage...i'd rather have a bunch of people pissed off at me for 2 weeks than have a bunch of people pissed off at me forever because i never told them what was bothering me. and so this is what im doing. im telling you whats bothering me. and if you dont agree with my decisions,then i respect that because youre entitled to your own opinion. but when you and everyone else try and convince me that what i think is wrong and what you think is right,thats when i get annoyed and angry. anyway,i just had to get that off my chest. i hope you understand. posted by Some Ceen at 12:19 AM

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		enjoy :-) posted by Some Ceen at 12:19 AM

		wMonday, December 30, 2002
		darth sheep: howdy Poshygrl24: SEANNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! darth sheep: sir Poshygrl24: whats up bra darth sheep: nada Poshygrl24: superdeduper darth sheep: playin find the stuff from the night before Poshygrl24: haha darth sheep: fun game Poshygrl24: hehe Poshygrl24: did u pass out in mikes car at mattress giant? darth sheep: apparently Poshygrl24: lol darth sheep: past the beer i cannot remember anything Poshygrl24: hehe darth sheep: except mattress giant puking session and the difficulty of locked doors Poshygrl24: ahhhhhh lol Poshygrl24: u puked htere? Poshygrl24: what about at wendys darth sheep: its right next to wendys darth sheep: but i dont remember wendys darth sheep: so i might have Poshygrl24: mike said y'all got food there Poshygrl24: lol darth sheep: oh darth sheep: i wonder what i had Poshygrl24: lol darth sheep: what time did you leave Poshygrl24: ummm 9 45? i told mike to tell u i said bye cuz i didnt know where u went lol darth sheep: o posted by Some Ceen at 2:00 PM

		wSunday, December 29, 2002
		Poshygrl24: hey Number1Stunn69: hello Poshygrl24: whats up Number1Stunn69: nothin u Poshygrl24: same Number1Stunn69: cool Number1Stunn69: so yeah wut the fcuk Number1Stunn69: fuck* Poshygrl24: ? Number1Stunn69: where is my pic Poshygrl24: i sent it!! Number1Stunn69: hahaha Number1Stunn69: funny Poshygrl24: wasnt it? lol Number1Stunn69: i thought u were gona do it Poshygrl24: hehe :-P Number1Stunn69: y not Number1Stunn69: cause u dont trust me at all do u Poshygrl24: no thats not it Number1Stunn69: then wut Poshygrl24: its cuz i really couldnt do it..my webcam doesnt work and i couldnt do it in alis room....and its just really hard to take a good pic of urself Number1Stunn69: sure Poshygrl24: swear Number1Stunn69: come on just send me one pic Poshygrl24: i cantttttttttttt Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: yyyyyyyyyeeeeeeesssssssssss uuuuuuuuu ccccccccaaaaaannnnnnnnn Poshygrl24: no. Poshygrl24: shit if i sign off its cuz my mom is sleepin in my room so i prolly wont come back on...so then ill ttyl cuz i cant use the phone cuz she'll hear me... Poshygrl24: bye posted by Some Ceen at 11:28 PM

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		i felt like sucha pussy tho....drinkin the pussiest drink and feelin shitty....lol. how was the beach? i heard ur calls this mornin i jus didnt have the energy to answer...i was soooo freakin tired still this morning i almost ran into a wall (again) lol. im fully awake now though. i might hang out w/matt today,but idk yet. um...yeah. ew did sarah tell u about kristen's bunnies? (my moms friend from last night) yeah a dog attacked them and rabbit pieces were all over the back porch.....EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW posted by Some Ceen at 2:42 PM

		wSaturday, December 28, 2002
		YOU are. i cant walk straight i feel like a pussy....ali and i were so close to running into a wall...or each other i dont remember...i passed out on her bed im so tired....i peed when i went home so did she....then i slept and woke up. i feel so shitty cuz im so tired im livin off 4 hrs of sleep and not to mention im freeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzing so yeah. ill call u tomm posted by Some Ceen at 11:54 PM

		wFriday, December 27, 2002
		I REALLY COULDNT TELL YA~! um yeah but i got my phone back,but for the daytime only....GAYYYYYYYY posted by Some Ceen at 12:49 PM

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		my mom is so gay she took away my phone and my cell phone cuz she caught me on the phone and was pissed that i didnt want her sleepin in my room and now shes threatening me that shes gonna start checking up on me every night to make sure im asleep and shes gonna make me give her my cell phone every night.....I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE. sry i jus needed to vent...its shower time though...ttyl posted by Some Ceen at 12:09 AM

		wWednesday, December 25, 2002
		im sowwie. i warned u posted by Some Ceen at 11:42 PM

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		dad=evil bastard who likes to take his misery out on us by placing us under house arrest. im sneakin out on new years. keke!!!!!!! lol posted by Some Ceen at 3:34 PM

		wTuesday, December 24, 2002
		flipskater1237: Do I look ulgy to you? Poshygrl24: si senor flipskater1237: hi Poshygrl24: hi flipskater1237: whats up Poshygrl24: ur dick flipskater1237: not yet Poshygrl24: later? flipskater1237: yes mam flipskater1237: I come to eat, not to play bingo, sally. Poshygrl24: me too flipskater1237: It's all about the gross national product. Poshygrl24: no its not flipskater1237: Talk to me little boy. flipskater1237: I have legs, twice. Poshygrl24: i am not your bitch flipskater1237: I sleep on a bed of meat. Poshygrl24: i sleep on YOUR meat flipskater1237: do ya now? Poshygrl24: si senor flipskater1237: ohhh flipskater1237: okay flipskater1237: What if i were to ask you a hypothetical question? flipskater1237: do you have any children? Poshygrl24: Si senor flipskater1237: I have about 6 myself Poshygrl24: thats it? flipskater1237: yes flipskater1237: "The machine of the future" said nicholas. Poshygrl24: So far I have spent my winter break taking down bad guys and romancing international beauties. flipskater1237: whats that supposed to mean? Poshygrl24: what the hell do you think it means?!?! flipskater1237: it means ur all playa playa Poshygrl24: si senor flipskater1237: Please leave this cat here with me. Poshygrl24: is it a hairless pussy? flipskater1237: yea Poshygrl24: sometimes flipskater1237: How about a Rhetorical question? Poshygrl24: shoot flipskater1237: do u shave ? Poshygrl24: si senor flipskater1237: YOUR FACE flipskater1237: hzhahaa' Poshygrl24: sometimes flipskater1237: i know u dont shave ur armpits Poshygrl24: i get my boyfriend to do it for me Poshygrl24: im too lazy flipskater1237: thats so gross Poshygrl24: YOU are flipskater1237: i would never shave anyones armpits flipskater1237: im not flipskater1237: Am I right about the hotdog? Poshygrl24: u like the stubbly feeling flipskater1237: nope flipskater1237: i shave Poshygrl24: dont lie buster flipskater1237: Give me onions, or give me death. Poshygrl24: death of course flipskater1237: nope flipskater1237: i bit an onion once Poshygrl24: want a cookie? flipskater1237: are u really gonna gie me eone? Poshygrl24: ill give u a cherry on top too flipskater1237: okay flipskater1237: can i come over ad get it? flipskater1237: Slut count! Poshygrl24: tonight flipskater1237: okay flipskater1237: Take my other pants. Poshygrl24: ill take em all flipskater1237: noooooo flipskater1237: Do you talk to the cheese? Poshygrl24: i AM the cheese flipskater1237: u are the cheese Poshygrl24: the big,FAT stinking cheese Poshygrl24: dont ever forget it either flipskater1237: Do you have mustard stains on your chin, fatty? Poshygrl24: i have mustard on my tie Poshygrl24: i need to SHOUT it out Poshygrl24: brb flipskater1237: okay posted by Some Ceen at 4:16 PM

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		nothin! yay! posted by Some Ceen at 3:31 PM

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		i can see that... haha last night at like 12 30,matt sent me a msg 'i wish i was with you' lol. he called me twice at like 1:30 but i was sleepin :-( oh yeah im not grounded,so far. so...ima take advantage of it lol posted by Some Ceen at 9:01 AM

		wSunday, December 22, 2002
		Poshygrl24: hi. Number1Stunn69: hey Number1Stunn69: so Poshygrl24: so what Number1Stunn69: thia is how i feel Number1Stunn69: i feel like u dont like me any more is that true Poshygrl24: no Poshygrl24: why do you think that Number1Stunn69: then y the fuck do u play it off lik u do Number1Stunn69: cause u dont give a fuck bout me Poshygrl24: thats NOT true Number1Stunn69: its true we always talk bout this yet nothin changes Number1Stunn69: yes it is Number1Stunn69: u never want to fuckin chill Poshygrl24: we do a lot of talking,and nothing ever changes... Number1Stunn69: y is that Poshygrl24: i do want to hang out...u just dont understand Number1Stunn69: its u not me Number1Stunn69: i'm the one who calls i'm the one who makes the plans Number1Stunn69: yet u dont give a shit Poshygrl24: well i feel like you dont care about me and u only call me when u want to hook up....cuz we never talk and when we do we just fight Number1Stunn69: r u kiddin me Number1Stunn69: i only call u to hook up Number1Stunn69: u think i dont care bout u Number1Stunn69: thats funny Poshygrl24: maybe not but u give that impression sometimes.....u call me like at 10:00 and wanna hang out...u want me to sneak out all this shit Number1Stunn69: u act like such a bitch to me all the time Poshygrl24: because i dont get you....at all Number1Stunn69: so that means i want to hook up Number1Stunn69: i cant just want to see u no Number1Stunn69: cause u always look at the negative in things Number1Stunn69: alsways Number1Stunn69: wut the fuck dont u get Poshygrl24: well i dont know what you want. and whenever we're hanging out it seems like you dont wanna talk u dont wanna do anything. at school u dont even talk to me and whenever we try to talk theres nothing to talk about. we have nothing in common,nothing to talk about but how much we dont know what the hell is going on Number1Stunn69: ok then do u just want to end this between us? Poshygrl24: i really cant answer that question...cuz i dont know what i want anymore Number1Stunn69: no answer it Poshygrl24: but i have a feeling you do,so if u want to then go ahead Number1Stunn69: this is y i kinda do cuase u r the hardest person to talk to Number1Stunn69: how can we get to kno eachother by just talkin at school for like a totally of 10 mins Number1Stunn69: max Number1Stunn69: the reason y i wanted to come over is cause i wanted to talk with u Poshygrl24: but im not like this with anyone else...thats one thing i dont get. i have the hardest time talking to you. i dont even know why... and of course i wanna talk to you for more than 10 min a day but its so freakin difficult. we have NOTHING to talk about Number1Stunn69: cause u arent close Number1Stunn69: casue u never ever want to chill Number1Stunn69: and talk Number1Stunn69: we* Poshygrl24: i do. but i feel like if i just wanna talk youll get annoyed with me Number1Stunn69: u kno wut your problem is Poshygrl24: like on friday...i got really pissed off because you called me at like 9:30 and wanted to hang out and i told u i couldnt do anything cuz i had to be home an hour later and then u asked if i could sneak out....and then i kept telling myself that you didnt care about me and you were just being selfish,wanting me to sneak out and risk getting grounded just to hang out for like 30 min or whatever Poshygrl24: what Number1Stunn69: you always assume things that arents tru Poshygrl24: well its kind of hard not to Number1Stunn69: y the fuck u say that Poshygrl24: because. theres like NO communication whatsoever beyond all the fighting and stuff like that...the fighting doesnt even bother me at all anymore,at least we're talking..but when was the last time we actually had a normal conversation? september? october? Number1Stunn69: y the fuck do u always got to be a bitch Poshygrl24: im not trying to be a freakin bitch! god see this is what i get for trying to tell you how i feel...you think im being a fucking bitch Number1Stunn69: i 'm try to save wutever we got left and u r pissin it away with stupid comments Poshygrl24: no. im trying to tell you how i feel. Poshygrl24: and you think im being a fucking bitch Number1Stunn69: so u feel that we havent had a conversation in too months Number1Stunn69: yeah Number1Stunn69: u r so fuckin hard headed Poshygrl24: well honestly,you cant tell me that things havent been awkward whenever we're together Number1Stunn69: no cause i aint the one that is neverous Number1Stunn69: when we r together Poshygrl24: that has NOTHING to do with it...and when you say shit like that it makes me feel like you dont give to shits about me cuz you just sit there making fun of me Number1Stunn69: u cant even look me in the eye when u talk Number1Stunn69: o thats wut u think im doin Number1Stunn69: yeah thats my goal in life to make fun of u Number1Stunn69: wutever Poshygrl24: well what else am i supposed to think? am i supposed to just sit there and take it and pretend that everythings ok Number1Stunn69: but i aint makin fun of u Number1Stunn69: so theres nothin to tke Number1Stunn69: take* Number1Stunn69: but think wut u want Poshygrl24: well when you make dumb comments like that it hurts my feelings cuz i feel like you dont care about me...not at all Number1Stunn69: well i fuckin do Number1Stunn69: if i didnt i wouldnt sit here and waste my time Number1Stunn69: aswer this have u every once made plans to chill Poshygrl24: no Number1Stunn69: y is that Number1Stunn69: cause u dont care Poshygrl24: i dont know. and dont try and tell me its because i dont like you,or because i dont care cuz thats not how it is at all Number1Stunn69: so wut the fuck is it Poshygrl24: i dont know! if i knew dont you think i would tell you? Number1Stunn69: is it bout that hookin up shit Poshygrl24: what Number1Stunn69: how u said u dont want to hook up Poshygrl24: thats not why i dont make plans to hang out with you....that might be why i act distant sometimes cuz i still dont see why you'd waste your time with me when you could be with someone else who would hook up w/u or whatever...but i really cant explain why i dont make plans with you or any of that other stuff..i dont even know why im like that...i would tell you if i knew,but i dont know posted by Some Ceen at 11:14 PM

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		Poshygrl24: hey Pt78LINK: hey Poshygrl24: whats up Pt78LINK: recouperating Pt78LINK: you? Poshygrl24: bored...u get a lotta shit for last night? Pt78LINK: i did , but i was expecting it Pt78LINK: i feel bad cause i made everyone drive all the way out there and everything Poshygrl24: yeah Poshygrl24: what'd u tell the cops Pt78LINK: it was all good untill the dog hit. they said they would have let us stay cause the dockmaster knew i worked on it and as long as we werent vandalizing we were ok Poshygrl24: did the dog find anything? Pt78LINK: yea, but not everything Poshygrl24: just drugs? Pt78LINK: alot of people brought some, just weed Poshygrl24: yeah....is that all u got in trouble for? Pt78LINK: thats why i told you all to go when i did, i didnt want everyone there when they found it Poshygrl24: yeah Pt78LINK: its not over for me yet....i still have to deal with the owner Poshygrl24: did u get in trouble w/the cops? or just ur parents Poshygrl24: yeah do u think ur gonna get fired Pt78LINK: i dont know... Poshygrl24: damn that sux Poshygrl24: are ur parents pissed Pt78LINK: its not like i actually did any work on the boat though anyway, i just brought girls back there to hook up and then charged them for it, lol Poshygrl24: what? Pt78LINK: i just said i aired it out or something and the owner would pay me for keeping it clean Poshygrl24: haha Poshygrl24: but u charged ppl? wtf Pt78LINK: not people, the owners Pt78LINK: for doing work on thier boat Poshygrl24: oh! lol Pt78LINK: like, if i was bored or something i used to get a few of my friends together and we would go spend the night down there watching movies and making popcorn or something. but not alot of people, just like 2 guys and 2 girls, or a double date or something Poshygrl24: aw cute Pt78LINK: did you get in any trouble? Poshygrl24: nope Pt78LINK: really? howd you pull that one off? Poshygrl24: on the way home,these guys were throwin shit at harrys car so we stopped so he could make a police report so we told our dad thats y we were late Pt78LINK: did that really happen? Poshygrl24: yes Pt78LINK: i hate that city..... Pt78LINK: hows his car? Poshygrl24: yeah me too Poshygrl24: lol Poshygrl24: he got a couple of dents in the side Pt78LINK: damn Poshygrl24: yea posted by Some Ceen at 7:54 PM

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		good p0int...about chris...and sean knows ur right,once again,and he feels the need to shove it in ur face that ur wrong,even thought ur right. SEAN CAN SUCK MY FUCKING COCK posted by Some Ceen at 3:32 PM

		wFriday, December 20, 2002
		omg ur so funny....ok the hair and eyes and innocent look might go.....BUT her boobs are bigger lol posted by Some Ceen at 3:46 PM

		wThursday, December 19, 2002
		it wont boost my ego.....tell me. cuz honestly i dont see it. lol posted by Some Ceen at 8:40 PM

		wWednesday, December 18, 2002
		rastamelodies: its not that mr davis doesnt have to be there, hes legally not supposed to be there Poshygrl24: hes not really coaching though...its more like supervising ppl who are workin out so they dont hurt themselves rastamelodies: exactly, so why call him a shitty coach Poshygrl24: cuz...he just shows up one day,and half of the ppl there have never lifted weights or anything and he was bitchin and whinin cuz ppl were doin shit wrong rastamelodies: cuz thats what coaches are suppose to do rastamelodies: all coaches can do is bitch and wine and show u the way, you're the one that has to follow through they can make you do anything Poshygrl24: forget it its not worth arguing over rastamelodies: i jus dont like ur view on things, its very sugarcoated, but ur right its not worth arguing over Poshygrl24: well i dont like ur view on things...its always your way and everyone else is wrong. rastamelodies: lol, ok rastamelodies: if u only knew how many times ive said im wrong, but u dont cuz i dont talk to you, b/c all u do is complain about people and things, thats why i get angry at you, thats why everyone else does Poshygrl24: ur the ONLY one who is constantly mad at me...everyone else seems to have some level of maturity and doesnt hold grudges over stupid shit rastamelodies: dinner posted by Some Ceen at 8:04 PM

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		yeah he is...hes fuckin useless...and dawsons creek is a rerun..im sure u havent seen it tho so watch it if u cant sleep hahaha posted by Some Ceen at 6:29 PM

		wTuesday, December 17, 2002
		iight posted by Some Ceen at 7:37 PM

		wMonday, December 16, 2002
		Poshygrl24: hey Number1Stunn69: hello Number1Stunn69: u sick Poshygrl24: nah i needed sleep...lol i didnt wake up on time so i jus stayed home and slept lol Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: o i c Poshygrl24: yeah Number1Stunn69: yo sis said u felt like shit Poshygrl24: how was school Poshygrl24: yeah i did tho Number1Stunn69: sucked Poshygrl24: jus exhausted and tired and stuff Poshygrl24: yeah school is a waste of time...its too damn boring Number1Stunn69: yeah it is Poshygrl24: grrr Number1Stunn69: so Poshygrl24: what u doin Number1Stunn69: wut u did all day Poshygrl24: slept...did some stuff w/my mom Poshygrl24: did u work out after school Number1Stunn69: yup Poshygrl24: cool Number1Stunn69: yeah Poshygrl24: yeah...im really friggin bored Number1Stunn69: so Number1Stunn69: your g Number1Stunn69: ay Poshygrl24: nah Poshygrl24: u are Number1Stunn69: na Poshygrl24: ok Poshygrl24: we're both str8 Number1Stunn69: so u comin tomm Poshygrl24: to school? Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: no u are bi and i m str8 Number1Stunn69: hahahahahaha Number1Stunn69: j/k Poshygrl24: yeah i think so..i dont wanna though! lol i get more done at home..school is such a useless waste of time Poshygrl24: keep tellin urself that Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: i will Poshygrl24: ok Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: keep tryin to figure out the true Number1Stunn69: hahaha Poshygrl24: u dont really think i am do u Number1Stunn69: r u Poshygrl24: nah Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: i dont care i rther u be Poshygrl24: whys that Number1Stunn69: dont kno i think its cool Poshygrl24: ok Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: as long as u like me more Poshygrl24: even if i was,i dont like any chicks so i definately like u more lol Number1Stunn69: so u could like a girl more than me Poshygrl24: never Number1Stunn69: sure Poshygrl24: i swear :-P Number1Stunn69: u kno u would hook up wit a girl Poshygrl24: maybe Poshygrl24: id rather hook up w/a guy tho Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: if u were horny and a girl was sleepin ova and she wanted to hook up u would\| Number1Stunn69: yeah u would Poshygrl24: i dont know about that Poshygrl24: lol Poshygrl24: id rather hook up w/a guy anytime Number1Stunn69: just me i hope Poshygrl24: hehe Number1Stunn69: wut does that mean Number1Stunn69: u dont like me anymore Poshygrl24: im jus playin...lol im not hookin up w/anyone else lol Poshygrl24: are u? Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: no y said i only want to be with u Poshygrl24: hehe ok Number1Stunn69: i guess u forgot Poshygrl24: nah im jus checkin Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: u dont like me Poshygrl24: yeah i do Number1Stunn69: i can tell u dont Poshygrl24: wtf?! Poshygrl24: what makes u say that Number1Stunn69: wut the fuck yeah its tru Poshygrl24: no its really not...i like u i wouldnt lie Number1Stunn69: i just feel like its one way Poshygrl24: u do? Poshygrl24: im sorry Number1Stunn69: na forget it Poshygrl24: i thought you'd be sick of me by now anyway lol Number1Stunn69: i just feel like u dont really like me that and that u cant tell me that u dont Poshygrl24: i really do like u...and i dont know why u dont believe me... Number1Stunn69: i dont kno Number1Stunn69: w/e Poshygrl24: if it comes off that i dont like u then im sorry..cuz i dont mean it like that at all Number1Stunn69: i kno its just i never feel like u do Number1Stunn69: i beleive u Number1Stunn69: but idont kno Number1Stunn69: its just like little stuff Poshygrl24: maybe i just dont express my feelings well....or maybe just not in the way you'd like Number1Stunn69: come on u kno u dont express your feelins to me al all Number1Stunn69: and i not tryin to sound like a dick Poshygrl24: no i kinda see where ur coming from Number1Stunn69: somtimes i get the feelin that u dont wanna hang out when i ask u Poshygrl24: but maybe i just dont show my feelings the way u want me to..so u think i dont like u or somethin Number1Stunn69: but u dont show me any feelins Number1Stunn69: u got to admit Poshygrl24: i can see that Number1Stunn69: dont get mad Number1Stunn69: i'm just talkin to u Poshygrl24: im not mad at all Number1Stunn69: alright Poshygrl24: at least we're talking..lol i hate not havin somethin to talk about Number1Stunn69: me too Poshygrl24: yeah Number1Stunn69: so can i ask u question Poshygrl24: sure Number1Stunn69: u cant think that all i want is to hook up Number1Stunn69: i hope u kno that i really like u Number1Stunn69: u got to answer the ? Number1Stunn69: ok Poshygrl24: thats how it seems....lol but only cuz theres never anything to talk about unless we're talkin about hookin up or somethin Poshygrl24: ok Number1Stunn69: it might be a dumb ? but i think a good one Poshygrl24: ok Number1Stunn69: thats how wut seems Poshygrl24: its prolly why i think u jus wanna hook up Poshygrl24: maybe im looking into it too much lol Number1Stunn69: no wut does this mean that u wrote thats how it seems Poshygrl24: oh. that u jus wanna hook up Poshygrl24: but i dont know if i still think tht Poshygrl24: lol Poshygrl24: i dont know what to think anymore Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: wut the fuck Number1Stunn69: i cant beleive u Poshygrl24: im sorry...its just... Number1Stunn69: no fuck it Poshygrl24: nevermind its gay Number1Stunn69: i dont wanna talk Poshygrl24: im sorry...its just hard trying to understand what the hell is going on Poshygrl24: no stop it Poshygrl24: i hate when u do that Number1Stunn69: i cant believe u said after all i've said Number1Stunn69: na i'm really upset Poshygrl24: well what else am i supposed to think..i dont even know whats going on w/us anymore Number1Stunn69: well i hope that we r talkin Number1Stunn69: and i only want to be with u Poshygrl24: im not mad at u..i hope ur not mad at me Number1Stunn69: but i guess you'll never fuckin believe me Number1Stunn69: i am Poshygrl24: im sorry matt..i really am Number1Stunn69: i cant believe u still think that Poshygrl24: i dont know if i still believe that...maybe i just say that cuz i dont know what else to think Number1Stunn69: please tell me now wut i got to do to prove to u that i realy truely like u Number1Stunn69: please Poshygrl24: ok. theres one thing that still makes me doubt that u like me Number1Stunn69: wut Poshygrl24: but i hafta get off the computer cuz my mom is yellin at me so can i call u Number1Stunn69: ok posted by Some Ceen at 11:08 PM

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		im sorry. im not a very entertaining person...lol posted by Some Ceen at 9:19 PM

		wSunday, December 15, 2002
		cuz i was wondering what troupe she was with....and forget about alex .shes useless posted by Some Ceen at 4:35 PM

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		what school does amber go to posted by Some Ceen at 9:29 AM

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		for once. hahahahahahaha. lol posted by Some Ceen at 9:29 AM

		wSaturday, December 14, 2002
		dont do anything. cuz if shes starting to show signs of liking you..(sry to burst ur bubble..)..but shes either just using you for rides and shit or shes just like that w/everyone. cuz i know she doesnt like you like THAT...but she acts like it. but she acts like it w/everyone else so i dont see how u could see anything in the future.......... oh yeah i saw amber at ITS and talked to her for a few mins....jus thought id tell ya lol posted by Some Ceen at 10:07 PM

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		jahduBstylee: you had to bench 45 poiunds?!!?!?!? jahduBstylee: oh my god jahduBstylee: isnt that the bar? Poshygrl24: shut up Poshygrl24: im a virgin weightlifter.....i wasnt expecting to fully exert myself on the first day jahduBstylee: hahahaha jahduBstylee: did you r sister make it home alive? Poshygrl24: yuh jahduBstylee: wow jahduBstylee: i saw law run 2 or 3 reds Poshygrl24: wasnt ali drivin jahduBstylee: i dunno jahduBstylee: maybe it was ali that ran the reds... Poshygrl24: lol posted by Some Ceen at 1:01 AM

		wThursday, December 12, 2002
		DOLFANsince1985: SPAZZZZZ DOLFANsince1985: hes a weirrddddd kid DOLFANsince1985: like a GIANT 2 year old...maybe worse DOLFANsince1985: "whatever whatever i dont care whatever. fuck this fuck that fuck this fuck you" Poshygrl24: yes DOLFANsince1985: its incapable of an intelligent conversation DOLFANsince1985: its like yelling at a little kid almost DOLFANsince1985: u didnt want to tell him something so he freaked Poshygrl24: yeAH...he does that ALL the freakin time Poshygrl24: and i dont wanna tell him cuz i know he'll spaz out again DOLFANsince1985: u dont get along cause ur not completely honest DOLFANsince1985: but if u dont mind me asking - why are you so shy DOLFANsince1985: ...by the way i dont think its bad at all Poshygrl24: he's not completely honest either....so why should i be? what am i supposed to do? come right out and say 'sorry if u want head keep dreaming cuz thats really gross and theres no way in hell im putting my mouth on ur shrivled,piss covered 2 incher ' DOLFANsince1985: but thats fonny, u should day it to him for fun DOLFANsince1985: then say it was sarah Poshygrl24: haha Poshygrl24: thats a good idea posted by Some Ceen at 12:46 AM

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		Number1Stunn69: sup cutie Poshygrl24: hey Poshygrl24: i was jus thinkin about how i havent talked to u in awhile lol Number1Stunn69: wut u doin Poshygrl24: watchin dawsons creek Poshygrl24: u? Number1Stunn69: o Number1Stunn69: me too Poshygrl24: what'd u do after school today Number1Stunn69: worked out Number1Stunn69: that this gym Number1Stunn69: u Number1Stunn69: go to track Poshygrl24: yeah Poshygrl24: im 10 times more sore than i was earlier Number1Stunn69: good answer Number1Stunn69: want me to come over and rub all your soreness out Number1Stunn69: hahahaha Number1Stunn69: y aint u talkin Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: r u mad at me or somthuin Poshygrl24: nope..not at all Poshygrl24: y would i be Number1Stunn69: cause u aint ttalkin Poshygrl24: sry i went to do somethin Number1Stunn69: o Number1Stunn69 signed off at 11:10:56 PM. Number1Stunn69 signed on at 11:11:29 PM. Number1Stunn69: hello Poshygrl24: yeah..are you mad at me? Number1Stunn69: no Poshygrl24: ok Number1Stunn69: so u goin to track tomm Poshygrl24: no Number1Stunn69: y pussy Poshygrl24: 1-too sore, 2-no ones really going, 3-i have rehearsal Number1Stunn69: come i'll be there Poshygrl24: maybe ill stop by after rehearsal lol Number1Stunn69: 1 your a sissy 2 your a sissy 3 your a sissy Number1Stunn69: hahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaha Poshygrl24: why am i a sissy?! lol Number1Stunn69: cause u just r Number1Stunn69: thats y Poshygrl24: why? hehe Poshygrl24: thats not a good answer Number1Stunn69: sure it is Poshygrl24: hmmmmm im thinkin no Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: plus u are i sissy when we chill together Poshygrl24: no see,theres where youre wrong Poshygrl24: theres a difference between being shy and being a sissy lol Number1Stunn69: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm im thinkin yes Poshygrl24: wrong again Number1Stunn69: u dont even let mer touch u Poshygrl24: shut up matt Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: me* Number1Stunn69: ok Poshygrl24: no really dont Number1Stunn69: its tru Poshygrl24: not entirely Number1Stunn69: fine Poshygrl24: what Number1Stunn69: so am i aloud to touch u if u i see u this weekend Poshygrl24: sure Poshygrl24: lol Poshygrl24: whatever you want Poshygrl24: lol Number1Stunn69: this might sound weird but listen Poshygrl24: k Number1Stunn69: i think to get rid of u being shy we should chill more and maybe hook up cause that is wut makes u shy Number1Stunn69: dont think that all i want is to hook up Number1Stunn69: i will be mad Number1Stunn69: thats wut i think Number1Stunn69: so u tell me if im right Poshygrl24: i think youre right....partially....i know the reason im shy (well,most of it) is because i dont really hook up w/ppl a lot so its just kind of...weird i guess Number1Stunn69: i kno and i think to solve that is to hook up more Number1Stunn69: with me Number1Stunn69: not like sex Number1Stunn69: or anyuthin but Number1Stunn69: more than kiss u get wut im tryin to say Poshygrl24: yeah i get what ur trying to say... Number1Stunn69: its hard to put it in words Number1Stunn69: but Poshygrl24: but what Number1Stunn69: arent u goin to say somthin else Poshygrl24: what are you expecting me to say Number1Stunn69: do u thinjk im right Poshygrl24: about which part Number1Stunn69: the whole thing Number1Stunn69: tell me wut u agree wit and wut u dont agree wit Poshygrl24: ok. i agree with the whole shy thing and how i need to get over it...but i dont agree with the reasons...i dont know if you mean it to come out that way,but it just sounds kind of...selfish i guess. dont get me wrong,im not mad or anything.. Number1Stunn69: u there Poshygrl24: but u know me and u know how i am,and i dont wanna feel like i have to do something other than kissing to get ur attention or whatever...thats not me at all Number1Stunn69: wutever i didnt mean it like that but thats the alonely way i see that u can get over it Number1Stunn69: but wutever do wut u want Number1Stunn69: well wut r u tryin to say Poshygrl24: i dont think you get it...maybe i dont wanna just 'get over it'....im not the kind of person whos just gonna change the way i am to satisfy someone elses wishes... Number1Stunn69: that all u want to do is kiss Number1Stunn69: u fuckin told me that u hate being like that Number1Stunn69: wutever i dont care Number1Stunn69: do wut fuckin want Number1Stunn69: be shy dont let guys come into your life Poshygrl24: yeah,most of the time i do hate being like that...but its not that easy to just change..especially if its for someone else's reasons and not your own...and obviously you do care so dont try and kid urself by saying you dont Number1Stunn69: so u r sayin that i am being selfish and that i want u to do it for me Poshygrl24: im not saying youre being selfish...i just dont think you understand Number1Stunn69: i do its just u dont want to change Poshygrl24: i do.....but im not gonna force it...did it ever occur to you that the shyness might be a little deeper Number1Stunn69: like that somthin happen to u Poshygrl24: no not like that Number1Stunn69: than wut Poshygrl24: its not exactly somethin i like to talk about,cuz it sounds really dumb...and even if i did,youre the last person i'd wanna talk to about it Number1Stunn69: y u got to say that Poshygrl24: because its just stupid,and knowing guys in general,youd make fun of me...maybe not to my face but you'd definately make fun of me Number1Stunn69: tell me i would never make fun of u outside of us Poshygrl24: no cuz youll just sit there laughing Number1Stunn69: of coarse we joke around but not with somthin that is serouse like this Number1Stunn69: just tell me Poshygrl24: its too hard to explain online Number1Stunn69: no its not u just r tryin to get out of it Poshygrl24: no im really not...id just rather talk about it in person or something Number1Stunn69: please tell me Poshygrl24: i will.... Poshygrl24: just not now Poshygrl24: i promise Number1Stunn69: when Poshygrl24: whenever i talk to u...i dont know Number1Stunn69: when Poshygrl24: whenever we get around to talking Number1Stunn69: o Number1Stunn69: ALRIGHT WUTEVE Poshygrl24: dont get an attitude..jeez Number1Stunn69: WELL IM OUT CAUSE U DONMT WANT TO TALK BOUT SHIT ONLINE SO LATER Number1Stunn69 signed off at 11:49:05 PM. posted by Some Ceen at 12:43 AM

		wTuesday, December 10, 2002
		sry i fell asleep posted by Some Ceen at 8:02 PM

		wMonday, December 09, 2002
		Rachel, your unconscious mind is driven most by Resistance You approach the world with your guard intact because unconsciously, and perhaps consciously, you want to maintain an element of control in your relationships with people. You tend to hold your private experiences just out of reach of others. You're not one to immediately show all your cards, to let people into who you really are until you're ready. Unfortunately, that sometimes means you also hide things from yourself. You may find that your desire to remain guarded backfires, affecting your self-awareness. Why are you like this? It's possible that you act in this manner because of a deeply-rooted fear of being exposed, or of truly expressing yourself. To protect yourself from this fear, you act in the opposite manner — you are guarded. There is a certain respect that comes with resistance, an unconscious understanding that the human psyche is very vulnerable. We all feel we have a lot to hide, and you are not one to be intrusive or thoughtless about how you approach sensitive topics with others. Therefore you inspire a sense of safety in others when they are around you. Your psyche is very deep, very rich, and the more you can let yourself know (both the good and the bad), the more you will be able to appreciate who you really are. Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Resistance, there is much more to who you are at your core. posted by Some Ceen at 7:45 PM

		wSaturday, December 07, 2002
		im up bro but idk if u are....lol posted by Some Ceen at 12:53 PM

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		yes....and a longer ride later!!! lol hehe ill call u tomm....if i get up before 4 lol its 3 AM right now...who knows when ill wake up....lol posted by Some Ceen at 3:03 AM

		wThursday, December 05, 2002
		yes we did. posted by Some Ceen at 7:22 PM

		wWednesday, December 04, 2002
		hehe. why dont u ever talk in person? posted by Some Ceen at 7:35 PM

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		man i was so exxxcited after drama cuz matt drove by he was droppin jimmy off at baseball..so i called him and i was like hey did u jus drive by? and hes like yeah where are u? and im like by the cafeteria. so he comes back over to talk to me.....and doesnt talk. kathrine was laughin the whole time cuz we were like yeah....so......uh huh....so......it was so lame. we never talk in person. im so sick of this shit. bah humbug posted by Some Ceen at 6:11 PM

		wTuesday, December 03, 2002
		ok heres what happened w/matt so far..its why i was in a bad mood....i didnt feel like retyping everything so jus read this: rastamelodies: so what guy put u in a bad mood? Poshygrl24: WHO DO YOU THINK!? lol rastamelodies: matt? Poshygrl24: duh. rastamelodies: what did he do now? Poshygrl24: we got in another fight... Poshygrl24: again Poshygrl24: its getting so redundant Poshygrl24: but we made up...agani rastamelodies: wanna send me the convo Poshygrl24: lol Poshygrl24: it was on the PHONE this time!! arent u proud of me!? lol rastamelodies: woot for u Poshygrl24: lol rastamelodies: i this related to the blogger post? Poshygrl24: which one? rastamelodies: the dinosour one Poshygrl24: oh no this is about today..how he was gonna come over.. rastamelodies: care to elaborate? Poshygrl24: nah. im over it Poshygrl24: lol Poshygrl24: hes callin me later and we're gonna talk some more Poshygrl24: cz he had to go eat dinner rastamelodies: what happened? Poshygrl24: we got in a fight about him comin over..cuz he was gonna come here but then i had to eat and put away groceries and stuff so he went off on me about how i dont care about him and stuff and i was so mad all i could muster was 'whatever' and that pissed him off and he hung up on me Poshygrl24: and i guess he expected me to call him back but i didnt Poshygrl24: and then 20 min later he ims me and goes 'why do you try to act like u dont care' and then im like im gonna call u Poshygrl24: so i called him and hes convinced that i dont care about him at all and that i try to act all hard and stuff...im like ' where are you getting this!?' and we just talked about shit thats been wrong....and we made up of course. and of course it was cute. i just cant stay mad at teh little bastard theres more but ill jus tell u later posted by Some Ceen at 6:53 PM

		wMonday, December 02, 2002
		OMG im so proud of you for not agreeing with her and starting more shit..good job mikey. posted by Some Ceen at 7:36 PM

		wSunday, December 01, 2002
		I'm HIV+ Can I Give You A Hug? Fears Mark World AIDS Day Virus Could Evolve and Mutate; 3.1 Million to Die by Year's End be scurred. lol posted by Some Ceen at 11:41 PM

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		or lack thereof? hehe jk oh yeah...harry said ~wwlmwjdgi for life!~ Women Who Like Men Who jdgi. maybe means DOLFANsince1985: just dont get it posted by Some Ceen at 11:36 PM

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		dont worry about it...i told her he's just gonna use her,if anything. of course she dont believe me,but shes gotta learn from her own mistakes...so whatever happens,happens. but im watchin out for her. shes gonna be in orlando this weekend so thats one less weekend she'll be with him lol yeah. i might call u later,if im not sleepin. im tired as fuck. i been goin to bed at 3 every night this week....so bye posted by Some Ceen at 2:46 PM